a lumbar microdiscectomy to be exact.
i guess i had my tonsils and adenoids removed when i was 7 but i don't really remember that so my only association with hospitals has been involving my children, the birth of them or procedures for lena.
prior to the date and time of the surgery, i tried to come to grips with the reality of my situation but i actually lived in an acute state of denial up until the exact moment my birthday suit was covered by a hospital gown in a pre-op room with a nurse named nicki that laughed awkwardly to fill silence. nicki put in my IV & i thought, "well, i guess i'm having surgery now" and grabbed the weird remote thing attached to hospital bed by a cord that allowed me to turn on the small tv too far away for me to actually see in my glasses since you can't have surgery in contact lenses.
queen latifah had snoop dog on her talk show... did you even know that queen latifah has her own talk show?! and it is just me or has snoop dog been around forever? oh the things back surgery can teach you.
surgery went well, doc was happy with everything and i had little to no nerve pain almost immediately and just occasional nerve stuff now. this is pretty remarkable because even on lots of nerve pain meds, my foot has been numb since july.
all the denial, but i did the surgery and it went so well.
now i "recover"...which in my world translates to watching gazillions people take care of my family, my household. the whole 6 weeks is supposed to be spent walking or laying down, with an emphasis on no BENDING, LIFTING or TWISTING...sounds simple enough right?
just do something basic like go to the sink and brush your teeth.
it's been so funny to me how much we bend, twist and lift. especially the mothers of little kiddos.
first week was a lot of trying to manage pain and figure out the best way to move and get in and out of bed. the second week has felt much better but requires a lot of discipline because feeling good does not mean i can do anything more than the laying down and walking.
but i can walk as much as i can handle and only 10 days in, i was able to do 3 30-minute walks.
so thankful to be walking more and more as autumn makes it's way to fayetteville.
so thankful for incredible people, being the body of Christ in beautiful and basic ways like jumping to do laundry and meals and playing with kiddos and even just an encouraging text or call.
so thankful for kids climbing stairs to bring me their latest artwork or pipe cleaner bracelet and kids going on walks with me.
so thankful for season 7 of the voice. (liking Gwen & Pharrell so far)
so thankful for a deck renovation. (more on that later)
trying to be thankful for being pushed to rest. not the laying down kind but the soul kind of rest. which for me, has followed the back stuff, the laying down, the total change of rhythm of every single aspect of my day to day.
only 5 days after surgery, when I was already feeling sorta sick of the lying around so much, i came across this ...
yes, come for rest. but stay for rest, too. stop all feverish haste and be calm and untroubled. come unto Me, not only for petitions to be granted but for nearness to Me. be sure of My Help, be conscious of My Prescence, and wait until My Rest fills your soul. Rest knows no fear. Rest is strong, sure. the rest of soft glades and peacefully flowing rivers, of strong, immovable hills. Rest, and all you need to gain this rest is to come to Me. so come.
and then a few days later, i came across this...and you'd think I googled rest for the soul or something but I didn't...He's just good like that and He has me here to rest.
to stay for rest.